Lost my husband (and best friend) very unexpectedly December 30th '06.I really miss having someone to share with - jokes, secrets, good times, relaxing, affection and excitement. Financially stable, nice house, good job - same employer for 12 years. I know that i'm great company and good fun but I'm starting to feel like the fifth wheel going out with friends. For a long while I didn't care, but now I want to do things, have fun again.